My mind is scattered. I haven’t felt so lost from reality in a long time.

A week ago, I felt completely grounded. Everything seemed to be as it should. Life felt normal, there was an underlying consistency in the otherwise exciting and chaotic.

Yet, after a few short days, I feel completely unattached.

The other day, I learned about the sudden passing of a coworker whom I’ve known for many years. And in the last couple of days, I’ve found myself dealing with several situations involving other friends that are weighing heavily on my mind. To top it off, my wife has left on vacation with her family. And while I will be joining them in a few days, until then, I will be on my own with these thoughts as my company.

I went for a long run today in hopes of distracting myself from my thoughts. Instead, I spent two hours distracting myself from the act of running by spiralling down a mental rabbit hole of negativity.

Life comes at us in waves. Sometimes good, other times not. Right now, it feels like I’m riding one of the other ones.

Thankfully, I am fortunate enough to live close to my people. I met up with a friend this evening in a park near where we live. It was brief, but her company was calming.

Proofreading this disjointed article makes me realize how scattered my mind truly is right now. I feel like I have a point to make, yet the entire post feels lost and pointless.