It’s astounding how much noise there is in our minds.

When I first tried meditating many years ago, all it did was frustrate me. Regardless of how hard I focused on the breath and nothing else, I couldn’t go ten seconds without catching myself distracted by thought.

The feeling infuriated me. It’s why it’s taken so long for me to meditate on a regular basis.

Since finally committing to a consistent practice around six months ago, I still catch myself distracted as often as before. Though I’ve also learned that noticing is the entire point.

That is the practice.

But what is truly fascinating is how much noise is there. I meditate in the morning, usually at 3:30 or 4 o’clock. It’s still dark, and I’m the only one awake.

I do it while my mind is still relaxed from sleep before external forces bring more distraction. I don’t check my phone, no email or social media. No food, no coffee. I sit in a quiet spot before almost any stimuli affect me at all. I’m barely awake.

Yet my mind is a flurry of nonsense. Thoughts swirling in the wind of consciousness, from the far reaches of my memories to things I need to get done at some point in the next year.

Remember the time you said that stupid thing?

Why did your stomach make that sound, is that cancer?

Get an oil change.

Don’t forget about supper tonight with friends.
I know, it’s on my phone, I won’t forget.
You should check to make sure.

Wait, why am I talking to myself. Who is that other me?

Shit, I’m supposed to be meditating…

Breathe.

If this is how wildly active the mind is before stepping out into the world, what is happening throughout the day? It’s no wonder mental health is such an issue today. The mind never gets a chance to slow down in waking life. I’m not sure it can on its own.

Noticing just how over-active the mind can be is something that most of us neglect. Give yourself a few minutes from time to time and watch, without judgement.

Learn to catch yourself in that state of spiralling distraction and bring yourself back to the moment.

It’s not easy, but your mind will thank you.